Heard about this?

This pretty young lady's name is Natalie Dylan. She is a 22 year old girl from California. For those of you who don't know, she is auctioning off her virginity. It's illegal in CA, so she is doing it through a brothel in Nevada, where prostitution is legal. Here's what she said...

"I feel people should be pro-choice with their body, and I'm not hurting anyone," she said. "It really comes down to a moral and religious argument, and this doesn't go against my religion or my morals. There's no right or wrong to this."

I'm not going to glorify it any more by saying the price the auction is up to currently, you can look that up on your own. What I will say is that I wish she knew she was worth far more than the price she's willing to accept for her virginity. I wish she knew that the money she gets won't buy back her dignity. And the price tag on her virginity doesn't increase her self worth. A man died on a cross long ago, and HE thinks she is worth far more than the price she'll receive. But, regardless of the situation she's choosing to place herself in, I know if someone brought her to Him, that He would forgive her and love her. I don't know this young lady's past or why she's doing this, but I DO know that a part of her has to be hurting to be willing to prostitute herself. No one is beyond the mighty grasp of our Heavenly Father, and this young lady needs our prayers.

An Update

Holy cow, it's been hard to keep up with blogging! I haven't posted in almost a month and a lot has happened in a month! Just 2 days after we got the B-12 in the mail (and 2 days of taking it) my upper lip was back to normal and since then I've only improved. It's been pretty amazing! I was able to go back to church on Jan.4th. My ear pain has been completely gone-praise God! The only lingering effects are my eye still doesn't blink completely and I have a small numb part of my bottom lip. God really used this time to show me a few things and I can honestly say I'm thankful for it. Thanks everyone for all your prayers and emails, cards, etc. I appreciate every one of them!!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!!

Research, research, research

Ever since I was diagnosed with Bell's Palsy, Scott has been a reading research machine, LOL! I think he's read every Bell's Palsy site available. One thing he came across is a study where people affected with Bell's Palsy are given B12 injections for 2 weeks and nothing else. Most all of the people were helped in some way. So I talked to my neurologist, who said he wasn't familiar with the studies but he'd look them up. He called today to say that he researched B12 and he does think I should start B12 supplements/shots. I was glad to hear that because Scott ordered B12 tablets yesterday. The thing with these tablets is that most people who are taking B12 aren't even taking the right kind. B12, in supplement form, is usually made of one of 2 things...cyanocobalamin or methylcobalamin. The cyanocobalamin is actually synthetic and also has cyanide in it. The body cannot even really use the B12 in this form. The methylcobalamin is the one Scott found that works, and the neurologist said the same thing. So, if you're using B12 and it's made of cyanocobalamin, you might as well just pitch it the dr. said. Anyway, sorry to run on about this medical stuff, it's been pretty interesting for us anyway. I can't say that I've noticed much improvement physically over the last week. My ear is still hurting and my face is still numb. I am finally done with the steroids I was on, which is somewhat nerve wracking because the steroids were keeping the pain/swelling in my face and diziness away. Once I'm off of them for a few days I'll know better how my body is going to react to not taking them. So, other than that, thank you to everyone who has been sending me cards and emails and notes of encouragement. I love you all and appreciate every one of them!!

:)

Today I was pretty shocked. The corner of my mouth turned up a little bit more and I'm moving my eyebrow more too. The other night, Scott had to take me to the emergency room because I was getting a lot worse quick. I was really dizzy and the whole right side of my face was in extreme pain! The doctor said it was because I was done with one of my medicines and I should've been weaned off of it. So, they gave me a big dose of it at the E.R. and gave me a prescription. This time, I'll take it for two weeks and gradually come off of it. My ear is still hurting a lot and it's still really sensitive, but I'm feeling better overall. Thank you to everyone who has stopped by and sent emails, etc. it has helped keep my spirits up!

Julie is 4!!

So, Sunday was Julie's birthday. It didn't start off too good. She fell at church and got a big goose egg between her eyes. She said she's never going back to church, but within a day or two she was ready to go back. She wanted to go to Giggles and Smiles at the Mills for her birthday. So, I put in my ear plugs (both ears! lol) and off we went. She had an awesome time!!

A Visit to the Dr...

Well, yesterday I saw Dr. Berger. He confirmed what the E.R. doctor said, it is Bell's Palsy. (see the post below this one.) He also confirmed that I don't have an ear infection, regardless of how excruciating the ear pain is. It seems that the pain in my ear is just one of those things that "go along" with Bell's Palsy. I've found that one of those foam, squishy ear plugs work pretty well for squelching a lot of every day noise that bothers me. Normal sounds are extremely loud and painful to my ear. Anyway, the dr. said that he expects me to recover fully within 6 months. Until the ear pain begins to subside, I can't really go to church because the music and the voices would be sooo loud to me it would literally hurt. I wanted to test out this theory by stopping at Walmart on the way home to get some new medicine Dr. Berger gave me. (Yes, I'm crazy!) Just walking in the doors, hearing people pull apart the shopping carts sounded like glass breaking right next to my ear. I wanted to run out! But I tried to just get past it quickly. We dropped off my prescription at the pharmacy and it just seemed like everywhere there was a crying baby or someone laughing loud, I told Scott I HAD to get out of there. So me and the kiddos went out to the van and my sweetheart husband went back in to get my medicine. Last night I started feeling sorry for myself because I realized there was no way I could go to church and worship with my family...until I read my email. Thank you to everyone who sent me a card, a MySpace message, or just an email saying you were thinking of me! Then, the church came to me as our awesome Pastor Fred brought our family dinner and prayed with us. All of it a very real reminder from my Heavenly Father that the church is indeed just a building we meet in, His people are the church. I am so thankful and grateful for every one of you!! I was also reminded of God's grace because I was thinking of my mom and dad, who both had a stroke in their 50's. I wasn't with my dad when he had a stroke, but I was right there with my mom. I saw her sweet face look almost as if it was melting off of her in an instant, and in the end watching helplessly as she could no longer move the whole right side of her body. I watched her struggle at a rehab facility in Harmarville for months, and in the end still not being able to speak clearly and being confined to a wheelchair until she died at 66. I didn't have a stroke, but the symptoms sort of reminded me of my mom's face...just not as extreme. I know it could've been worse, and I know by God's grace and mercy that it wasn't. What a blessing to still be able to pick up my kids and wrap my arms around them and hug them until they say 'mom you're squishing me'! Or to hold my husband, too. Or to just be walking. All blessings and all things to be thankful for. And, as my little 5 year old, Emma, said to me with all the innocence of a child.... 'mom, if God took you home, you would get to see your mommy in heaven and you would both be able to move ok!' Thank you God for all these reminders that if nothing changed or got any better physically, that You love me and You hold me in Your hand....I'm Yours.

"Bring the Rain" by Mercy Me
I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain

I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain

So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain

Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the Lord God Almighty
is the Lord God Almighty
I'm forever singing

Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the Lord God Almighty
is the Lord God Almighty

everybody singing
Holy holy holy
is the Lord God Almighty
is the Lord God Almighty
you are holy
you are holy

Well, I have something called Bell's Palsy....

This is probably going to be a long post, so try and hang in there. I thought I'd try and explain a little better the prayer request that Scott sent out to our church family. If you aren't on the prayer team, you'll understand a little more after you read this...
This whole ordeal started Wed. the 26th of Nov. I had a mild ear ache. It wasn't too bad. Thanksgiving day it was pretty bearable. The day after Thanksgiving, though, was a different story. My ear ache got really bad...REALLY bad. I took Tylenol, Ibuprofen, laid my head on a hot water bottle, nothing worked. I just figured it was like every other ear infection and it would go away. Sunday, when we went to church, it got much better and I thought it was almost over. Boy, I couldn't have been more wrong. Monday the ear ache was back with a vengence. Monday evening, we had just sat down to dinner. I had 2 bites of dinner and I just felt hot, almost as if I was going to pass out. I got up from the table and went to our bedroom and just sat on the bed for a minute. I went to say something and that's when I realized the right side of my mouth wouldn't work. The whole right side of my face was instantly numb. I thought of my parents who both had strokes and that is instantly what I thought was going on. I called for Scott and we all left for the emergency room. Scott's mom took the kids and off we went. They hooked me up to heart monitors and oxygen monitors, etc. and everything was fine. They started doing some testing to see what exactly was affected. Just my face. Nothing else. I was totally aware and fine otherwise. Still a bad earache and now a bad headache too. The dr. ordered a CAT scan and the results said it was just fine too. Hmmm. The doctor came back and told me I had Bell's Palsy. What? I had never even heard of that. He said somehow (probably the ear problems) my nerves in the right side of my face got inflammed and they stopped working. They gave me some steroids and told me to see my neurologist this week. (my appt. is Thursday). When I left the hospital, I couldn't blink with my right eye and they told me I had to tape it shut to sleep. I also couldn't use the right side of my mouth at all. I only had half a smile. What is odd is that I actually DON'T have an ear infection. The doctor said there was a tiny amount of fluid in it but it wasn't infected. Wierd.
The next day, my eye got worse. My eye lid was drooping more (not a lot, but noticeable) and my mouth was also pulling to the left side more. My eye still wouldn't blink. It's amazing how many things we take for granted...like blinking or even wetting our lips. Neither of which I can do right now. I have to rely on artificial tears to wet my eyes and chapstick to help my lips.
So, that brings me to today. My speech is a little worse today, I have a very hard time saying words that start with the letter "p", "f", "b", etc. and my eye still won't blink. Today my ear also started having so much pain in it that just normal noise levels feel like someone is stabbing me in the ear with a knife, so I've been using one of those squishy ear plugs to soften the sounds. They said that recovery varies from person to person. Could be a couple months, could be more than a year. But they said that full recovery is likely, so that's good news.
I can't say I'm doing well with this, because I'm not. It's been hard adjusting to all of this in the blink of an eye. I'd appreciate every one of your prayers. I know God has a plan for all this, and I know He has ahold of me, and that comforts me like nothing else can. Scott gave me a card today that said "The Lord is good to all, He has compassion on all He has made." Psalm 145:9. And, even though this pain is here in my ear, and my speech isn't right, or I can't blink my eye, I am grateful because the doctor said most people get affected by this really badly, and my case is pretty mild. I am trying to not feel sorry for myself because I can't do this or that, but I'm trying to focus on what I am still able to do and be thankful for that. So, anyway, I'll keep updating my blog and I would appreciate your prayers for our whole family.

Pics....

Pics our family got taken for the directory at church...

It's that time...

Well, tomorrow is Nov.4th and it's time to vote. Me and Scott will both be voting for John McCain. I think the thing that irritates me the most is not obama voters. (but let's face it, it would greatly help the country if they voted for McCain :) ) What irritates me is people who vote and have absolutely NO CLUE who they are electing to office, or what they stand for. They vote because they've always been democrat or republican, or that's what their parents have always been. GET INFORMED PEOPLE! It's not hard to pick up a voter's guide or look up what the candidates stand for on the internet from reputable websites. I cannot believe the people I've asked the simple question "why are you voting for (McCain or Obama) and they really don't even know! Come on people!!

Our Weekend...

I haven't posted in a while. I've had stuff to blog about, just never seem to have the time. So, anyway, October 9th, my boy turned 7! I can hardly even believe it. He is turning into a young man before my eyes. He asked to go to Chuck E. Cheese for his birthday. Here are a few sketches the kids had done when we were there...
Emma..
Noah...
Kelly...Julie...
Then on Sunday we went to the zoo. It was free admission day, how cool was that! The kids really had fun at the zoo. We got to see them feeding the elephants, the two baby ones are adorable! We were in the monkey habitat and the kids were sort of laying under the bottom pieces of glass watching them, and a monkey just jumped right on the glass. It was only inches from their faces. I thought to myself, 'how cool. they really get to see the monkey UP CLOSE', but it freaked out Julie and Noah and they got out of there quick. Julie is still a little traumatized by it. She wouldn't look at any other monkeys and wanted daddy to hold her until we were out of the monkey building. LOL! Then the tiger was up against the glass, pawing at people's hands and licking the glass. I couldn't help but think that tiger had to be thinking those kids looked like lunch! There was only one polar bear this time, anyone know what happened to the other? The snake building was closed, which was fine by me, but Kelly was bummed because she was really looking forward to it. Anyway, that's what we've been up to this past weekend. The weather has been beautiful! I hope it stays this nice for a few more weeks!!

This is Love

Priceless Thoughts

This is my 3 year old Julie. She is so much fun, she loves making herself laugh. She'll say something and just crack herself up! :) Today, I was having a conversation with her and I was the one laughing. Have you ever tried to NOT laugh when your kids are being totally serious? It is sooo hard!! We were in my bedroom, and she was just chatting away....
Julie: "Mama, that ring right there (she was pointing to my wedding ring) means your daddy's?"
Me: "Sort of. It means me and daddy are married."
Julie: "Mama, will I get married some day to a boy? And he will take me to church and go to my classes too?"
Me: "You might get married someday, but you won't have the same classes in church that you do now."
Julie: "I want a ring with a HUGE (spreads her arms out wide) gem on top! I think Emma(her sister) is going to marry satan."
Me: "Why would you say that? That's not very nice to say."
Julie: "Because she is very ANNOYING! And satan is bad so Emma listens to him!"
Me: "You still shouldn't say things like that, Julie. Emma loves Jesus just like you do."
Julie: "Mama, when I marry a boy and we go shopping at Walmart to get paper towels and things, will he push me in the buggy?"
Me: "No. You'll probably walk beside him. Do you ever see daddy push mommy in a shopping cart?"
Julie: "No. But you might when we go to grandmas and she watches us sometimes."
Me: "Is that what you think mommy and daddy do when grandma babysits you?"
Julie: "Yes, and you get ice cream and pizza and maybe chocolate, too."
And she went hopping happily out of the room! Here's another funny example of her personality in the video below. She LOVES to sing. She asked Noah to "introduce her" one day and she sang "Awesome God". If you're wondering why she is rubbing her tummy she told me she is playing the guitar. She also stops at one point and looks like she is turning something. She said they put her on the radio and she wanted to turn it up. LOL! Then she sang louder! I noticed when I uploaded it to God Tube, the sound got distorted a little and the words don't quite match her lips. Oh well, it's still funny!!

Hmmm.....

I'm not sure what to think of Sarah Palin. I don't question her character, or the fact that she does good things. I'm happy that McCain's running mate is a conservative, pro-life, oil-drilling supporter. I don't have a problem with all of that. I guess I feel like the majority of republicans and think that his running mate makes voting for him not so much like voting for the better of the two, neither of whom I was real excited about. Anyway, so my husband and I have been having debates over her and whether or not she'd make a good vp/president. He says yes. I say....well, not so much. Why? (hang onto your hats women, I'm probably about to make some of you upset!) Because she's a woman. EEK! I know, I barely believe it's coming out of my own mouth. But the more I thought about it, I think I really wouldn't like a woman president. It's not for religious reasons, she can be the president of the U.S. without sinning. It's because she's a woman. I know how women are..I am one. We can be emotional. We are to be helpers to our husbands, keepers of our homes, and moms to our children. (not to mention a long list of other 'hats' we wear!) And I think to myself, if McCain wins, she'll probably run for president in 2012. Would I vote for her? How could she do a good job as vp or president with children and everything else? I was talking to some women last night who agreed that we are emotional people, and the war in Iraq (which I agree with!) has husbands and dads and wives and moms fighting for our country. It affects a woman's heart to know that someone's dad, mom, etc. was killed. The 'woman in me' wants to shout "stop the war! bring them home!". If I was president and someone had my child and told me to hand over the keys to the country or my child would be killed, well, let's just say that my child would be ok. Anyway, I don't question the woman's character or anything she's done. I just question the fact that she is a woman and whether or not a woman would actually make a good president someday. For me, the jury's still out on that.

Ever hear of Dr. Bernard Nathanson?

I get an email newsletter from Citizenlink and the topic today really interested me. It was an interview with the man pictured on the left, former abortionist Dr. Bernard Nathanson. This man is personally responsible for 75,000 abortions. He is the co-founder of NARAL (National Abortions Rights Action League). Nathanson now says this: "As a scientist, I know, not believe, know that human life begins at conception," he wrote in his book The Hand of God: A Journey from Death to Life. The interview with him is very good, and instead of me trying to summarize it, you can look HERE for the full interview.

Watch This...

Give Me Your Eyes

This is a video I made using Brandon Heath's song, "Give Me Your Eyes".

A Top Ten Redneck List

The Top Ten Indicators that a Redneck has Been Working on Your Computer.....

10. The monitor is up on blocks
9. Outgoing faxes have tobacco stains on them.
8. The six front keys have rotted out.
7. The extra RAM slots have truck parts installed in them.
6. The numeric keyboard only goes up to six.
5. The password is 'huntin'
4. The CPU has a gun rack mount.
3. There is a Skoal can in the CD-ROM drive.
2. The keyboard is camouflaged.
1. The mouse is referred to as a 'critter'.

What is THIS???

Someone has to know what this oversize fly type creature is!! We saw one on a tree today that sounded like it was making loud noise (I know, it sounds crazy) and last week we saw one on a blanket I had hanging out on my clothes line next to what appeared to be a brown shell. EW! WHAT IS THIS????

Ever been here??

Today I was in this mood, I was feeling grumpy. I got up at 6 and realized Scott hadn't yet left for work. (He usually starts work at 6, but can start at 7 if he wants.) So I went out and said hi to him, and after he left I went back to our room to read my devotions. I was praying when I heard my daughter down the hall having a fit. I sighed and headed down the hall to see what the catastrophe was. I walked in to see her under her covers kicking and screaming. Her covers had become all messed up and she couldn't get them fixed. So, instead of coming to get me and asking for help, she decided to kick and scream and have a fit. When I took the comforter off her head, her red hair was all down over her face and she was as mad as could be. I fixed them for her and went back to my room to finish praying. 5 minutes later....screaming again. Sigh. Seems that the covers weren't fixed to her liking. (Her comforter is reversible and she wanted the pastel side out instead of the pink side!!!) I told her I was not going to change it, she was covered and fine and go back to sleep. Back down the hall to my room. By this time I was feeling a tad bit irritated at her cover issue. Screaming again. This went on 6 times. I didn't go back to her room after the second time, so she just kept having these mini-fits every few minutes. But I let it get to me and I got cranky. And then instead of taking my crankiness to God and asking Him to help me change my attitude, I just got up and got my day started. And almost everything I did, I just had this cranky feeling inside me...waiting to come out. As I went about my day, doing laundry, cooking, dishes, dusting, etc. etc. etc. I started getting resentful at all the stuff I do in a day (which never completely gets done) and how my husband isn't home to help out. Then I get a call saying my son and daughter's homeschooling books were shipped out, and that was another thing to think about. School will be starting in about 6 weeks, yet ANOTHER thing I have to do! I'm telling you, I was in a mood and it wasn't pretty. So, around 10:00 I decided I needed to pray. I needed a major attitude adjustment. I didn't want to start taking my attitude out on the kids or STILL be like this when my husband got home from work. By then, I was convinced that if Scott would help out more I wouldn't have so much to do and be so upset. And, as I poured my heart out to God, I felt Him answering me. Scott WAS doing what he was supposed to be doing. He was at work, doing his job to support his family. I was the one taking this all upon myself. Not finding strength in God and definitely not finding joy in my children. The longer I prayed the more the Holy Spirit just showed me I'M the 'lucky' one. I get to see the kids laughing till their bellies hurt when I push them on the swing, I get to hear their prayers to Jesus, I get to answer their questions about God, I get to bandage up their boo-boos and give them hugs and kisses all day, I get to see their faces light up when I put the puppies in the pool to swim with them. Scott only hears about all of it, or he might get to see a picture of it. My husband IS doing what he is supposed to be doing today. I'm the one choosing to not find joy in the role God has given me, I'm the one not realizing I have 4 little blessings right in front of me to celebrate. My kids get a day older every day and it will be WAY too soon that they'll be out of my home and at college or getting married or wherever God leads them. Somehow, the 'stuff' at home gets done enough for the day, and tomorrow is another new day. Today I need to be happy where I am. :)

Father and Son Relationship

One of my friends at church shared this with me and I thought it was so awesome!!

Father and Son relationship
(Read this short story and then watch the video)

A son asked his father, 'Dad, will you take part in a marathon with me?'
The father who, despite having a heart condition, says 'Yes'.
They went on to complete the marathon together.
Father and son went on to join other marathons, the father always saying 'Yes' to his son's request of going through the race together.
One day, the son asked his father, 'Dad, let's join the Iron man together.'
To which, his father said 'Yes'.
For those who don't know, Iron man is the toughest triathlon ever. The race encompasses three endurance events of a 2.4 mile (3.86 kilometer) ocean swim, followed by a 112 mile (180 .2 kilometer) bike ride, and ending with a 26.2 mile (42.195 kilometer) marathon along the coast of the Big Island .
Father and son went on to complete the race together......

I found their website and you can read their story. It is awesome! Look here for their website.

Check out this Site

Sometimes people will ask me what kind of editing software I use to edit pics or create new designs. Some of the programs I've used are very old, but I'm one of those people that if it works I use it and don't look for anything else. However, I stumbled upon this site today called "picnik" for editing photos and I thought it was good enough to share. It does a great job allowing you to edit/enhance photos and the best part is you don't have to register to use it! Woo Hoo! Anyway, go here if you want to check it out. Have fun! :)

Buoy or Boy?

We took the kids for a walk in the Kittanning Park a few weeks ago and Noah asked what were the orange things floating in the river. We told him they are called 'buoys' and they're used to mark the water. So, anyway, the other day we're in the van and Emma says "what are the orange things in the river Noah?" Noah says "they're men Emma." LOL!

Our 4th of July

How many kids do you know that don't like cotton candy? Well, I have two of them. I know this is sorta crazy, but I've never really given the kids cotton candy. So, tonight, we're at the Ford City Heritage Days and I bought two big bags of cotton candy for them to share, and Emma and Julie didn't like it. I've never met a kid that didn't like the stuff and I have two of them.

Well, anyway, today was an awesome 4th. We took the kids down to Heritage Days and they rode (and rode) rides and played games (that was a very brave lady at the dart booth to let a 3 year old throw darts, and she did have to duck once...LOL) and then we went to see the fireworks.




Emma always seemed to just laugh so hard she came down the big slides on her back the whole way. I love this pic. If only you could've heard her laughing!
Now, onto my last thing for the day. We were sitting in the van, letting the kids eat a snack while we were waiting on the fireworks to start and I happen to look down at the cup holder. The cup holder which was holding the girls red slushie. (I really HATE slushies now.) Anyway, the red slushie which now contained my digital camera. Yep, my digital camera that Scott just bought me a few months ago was standing in the girls slushie cup....and it still had slushie in it! I really couldn't even believe my eyes. I grabbed the wrist strap and pulled out my camera...now dripping with slushie. :( The memory card was still dry (obviously, these pics came out!) but I think the camera is ruined! Anyone know what to do in a situation like this other than just buying a new camera??

Hello Again :)

OK, so I haven't posted in forever! Sorry to anyone who still reads this blog after a month and a half of no posting! We're all doing well and life is as busy as ever! Summer is finally here! WOO HOO!! I think about the only *sad* news to report is that my beloved doggie, Samson, got lost. :( :( Scott was walking him on the Ford City trail one day and he slipped out of his collar and ran (and ran and ran and ran!) He is part border collie and part st. bernard. If anyone knows anything about border collies they LOVE to run. Scott could not catch him and it didn't take long before he was out of sight. Scott came home with a leash and an empty collar and told us what happened. Poor Scott, imagine him having to tell that to 4 kids and his wife. Emma asked him "why did you let him go daddy?" We had 4 crying kids on our hands that weekend. We tried to find him, but no luck. And the REALLY bad part is if someone finds him, the won't know he is ours....his dog tags, license, etc. were obviously on the collar which he got out of! :( So, anyway, our hearts have been heavy because Samson is gone. We had him for 2 years and he was a big baby! (don't tell that to our pastor who he barked at and nearly scared to death!) It's almost as if he died, it hurts that much. :( Anyway, in memory of our wonderful Samson, here are some pics of him...we miss you buddy!!

Here he is as our brand new puppy!

See, I told you he was a big baby. He loved 'cuddling' with toys!